the person who actually silenced my writing or so long

there is someone i know who would like me to change....to stop writing - to declare myself sick and be medicated - it has made me very very sad and unsure of myself.....there is much i want to change about myself - there is much i actually hate about myself....but if i stopped writing stuff and being who i am on here i'm not sure there would be anything left at all....should i change and become silent to please other people or should i keep on the way i am - there is no rest and it is exhausting when you have to apologise for everything you do or think or say - i used to write my bits on here and on another site - but once more i feel as though i have nowhere to write or live or breathe - exhausted and in darkness is no way to be