ancient soulvoice and learned language as a barrier to self

i get excited if anyone understands my writing....it comes from somewhere beyond the outer me that is shaped by the world i'm trying to exist in....like some ancient soulvoice that is sometimes difficult to access and sometimes takes over and demands to be expressed.....there is the language we have been conditioned to speak in and the then there is our own language....many have difficulty in accessing their own language....it is learned language as a barrier to self